Mr Flair

Thursday, January 25, 2007

It's quite amazing having staved off ciggies for 6 days. my withdrawal symptoms have transformed from day to day, occasionally varying in intensity, and this depends whether there are stimuli, for e.g. having neighbours smoking around you (no offence folks lol), or seeing other people smoke. it also depends whether you entertain your thoughts further, for example trying to remember how blowing smoke out of your mouth was quite fun etc. The first two days, my nose kept running, for the days that followed, up to this day, i've been having mild fevers on and off, cough, as well as phleghm being purged from my body. My lungs feel much clearer now and i'm slowly increasing the intensity of exercise. everyday i keep telling myself i'm gonna get fitter from today and i'm not looking back. if only smoking isn't unhealthy, i'll definitely continue doing it haha. it has helped me deal with depression and stress related to this point in time. however i've decided not to become reliant on it, refusing to become slave to something which keeps burning holes in my pockets and possibly my lungs as well. went to play ball last night, felt a little disappointed that i kept coughing and that my stamina was shit, which made me even more determined to make a so called 'comeback', to rebuild my fitness and regain strength. wish me luck.

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