Friday, May 18, 2007
Ok it's been some time since i actually wrote stuff on my life lol...
well to say the least, worship on tues was screwed up and undeservingly so. I had to lead worship, and eddy played along. it was distracting cos the timing and harmonisation was off. and that's cos we didnt practice together, but we weren't supposed to play together. but we learn. it was the driest worship session and i'm sorry folks for being a part of that cause. it affected the mood badly. everyone was in a spiritual low. there was no energy source for the rest to "drink" from. after that ed, nick, jo and i met up to reflect on the session. jo said worship is when you give your best to god. something which you should be ready and confident to do. that only comes about when your spirituality was in check. mine wasn't. thing is i could have stopped eddy from accompanying me on the guitar, but i didnt. well, it was a turning point for all of us. and it did make me reflect deeply. i've never thought of excess as something which would be a part of the rest of my life. but i realised it was gonna be. and my responsibility has just increased, in my own eyes. now i know what i'm up against, salvation is only realised when you know what God wants you to do. and you keep to it. the responsibility of his calling is great, but having surrendered, i rest assured he'll guide me.
i was attending mass at holy cross yesterday, and the readings in the missal were relevant to what i just described above. the second reading was taken from Eph 1:17-23, and the gospel, Luke 24:46-53. both talked about witnessing.
well that's exactly what i need, i thought to myself, listening to Fr Richards' sermon. he said, we are the only people Jesus Christ has for bringing his love to the world. the most powerful force in the universe is Love not hatred (which seems so prevalent in the world). the most powerful force is also Life, not death (which is everywhere). He said everyone is yearning for some meaning, something to look forward to after one dies. people want a happy ending to a story. when god asked jesus, so are the apostles the only people you have to carry on the faith? jesus said yes, they are the only ones. Then god replied, you don't have a backup plan? Jesus said no,
if they don't do it, it doesn't get done. and that's who we are, the apostles who are the only hope jesus has left in bringing salvation to the masses. well word up to that. thus, i felt that i was blessed with something more important, more significant which i originally thought was less. therefore it's a great responsibility to be christian. it's hard no doubt. when the people closest to you are the hardest to reach out to. and hardest to talk about faith. but if the shepherd is willing to forego the rest of the 100 sheep just to look for the one lost one, how much more important it is for us to reach out to those who are severely blinded.
this is obviously a religious post, no offence intended to anyone else reading it.
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